Dear Living creatures.
There are days I wish I could tell you to screw off because there are days as if saying in bed was a better choice. Why you may ask? Hmm because my bed gives me warm blanket hugs. Plus I have Netflix at a click of a button, so no reason to jump into my broken down ford escort and drive to red box. Nope. Not at all. But, welcome to the year of 2015 to all you nerds. Guess what?! We didn't die in the 2014 nor 2012... I probably just jinxed this next year to come. Oops. I believe if zombies ever come or anything super scary. Please just get me out of my misery. Oh, and I probably wouldn't even survive the purge.. If, we ever have one. Anyway this year I hope for tons of amazing stuff to happen to you all. I know this year I plan to try and decrease my intake of bull and increase my self worth. Let's bring up other's self esteem rather then push them into a grave hole. Instead of calling someone a monstrous name, call out something pleasurable. No one wants to hear about how their butt is too big, or how their stomach isn't as flat as yours. This year I want to be more considerate of others. I demand others and myself to stand up for people who are being bullied. I was bullied. In first grade I was harassed with the name, "Fat Chinese Lady." It was a name a young gentleman who judged me on my appearance instead of who I was as a person. I was bullied as well by another classmate. She would always sing songs about how I should be hit by a bus like a bug. Something around those areas. Even though it was a weak tease in elementary school it still hurt. If I remember correctly the young boy had to write an apology letter. Also, later I found out my bus bully wanted to be my friend and was only was mean because I didn't sit by her? Hmm. Little kid stuff. But, what I learned that you need to confront people when you have a disagreement. Don't be a bully back to your bully, but try and understand the other before you place judgement. Another few times I was bullied was in middle school. He was a tall Asian guy and played football, so a jock. Yes, he was cute, but his personality made him awful. I can not recall what he said to me in middle school, but my freshmen year in high school is a different story. I had Western Civ with young man and we were all watching an education movie on Buddha ... (Oh how boring education movies are... like I'd rather watch paint dry..oops.) So, this young man decides it would be a bright idea to whisper to my friend about how big my stomach was. He said "I bet if you rub her Buddha belly you'd get lucky." She then quickly told me about his unique findings about my "powers," I contained. Yes, I was pretty upset and I know for a fact I said something back, but I'm not sure what? I just know he was a bully and nothing I said could change that. Name calling hurts. Not like a bee sting. It's more along the line as if someone is holding a torch underneath your hand. It burns and leaves scars. Because of my appearance I've been bullied most of my life. The past is the past and I can't do anything to change it and I wouldn't. It's the great cliche,"the past has made in into the person I am today."
Another point to say today or tonight is one of my co workers is heading off to military school and will be gone for at least a year? I'm not sure about the details. All I know is over last semester of collage I wrote 12 letter with the side comments of my other co workers. The letters contain encouragement and candy to help him through the year? I'm not sure what he thinks of it, but I feel good about myself. I thought it was fun and I thought it would be nice for him to know that he has friends at home cheering him on to succeed. Another thing is he better write me back or else.... Well he doesn't HAVE to, but it would be nice to hear what's going on at camp. I hope he remembers to take them with him.. Hmm I'm not sure. Again I have know clue on how he feels about the letters?
Oh another thing is I'm not totally sure if my "blogs" make sense..? But, I'm just spitting out words as it comes to mind. I probably didn't even use correct grammar or punctuation. Sorry not sorry.
Song I'm currently listening to is "The Heart Wants What it Wants," by Selena Gomez.
Oh and a picture of my cat, Gizmo and I.
Random Selfies.
Plus my bird and I. Got it? Good!
